just because...
(Inspired by him)
Just because I miss you so much...
It's late. I just got back from a movie with my friends. It wasn't a great movie but I am happy it made it to the big screen. As I sat there I wanted you to be sitting beside me so I could lean over and say, "Oh yeah, I'm writing a screenplay because it can't be worse than this," or "Okay, you write the script and I'll direct because it can't be worse than this." I wanted you beside me. Just because I miss you so much.
I thought, maybe, after we finally had our time together the craving would be satisfied. I wouldn't need the fix of you as much. But it backfired; the craving now tries to consume me. My bed has never felt so empty; my life so isolated. There is so much I want to share with you. I find myself looking for you in everything. Just because I miss you so much.
I knew it was only for a weekend. I knew it was to be "no strings attached." Now I realize "Oops, I left something there." You gave me a wonderful memory to pull out and dust off when the nights become lonely. But the pain of loss overshadows the joy of our time together. I can't bear to reminisce yet. Just because I miss you so much.
I want to call you, but I can't. It's late. You're busy. I should be busy. The strings need to be cut. Our worlds, our lives, pull us farther apart. But I keep looking back... hoping you will too. Just because I miss you so much.
Just because I miss you so much...
It's late. I just got back from a movie with my friends. It wasn't a great movie but I am happy it made it to the big screen. As I sat there I wanted you to be sitting beside me so I could lean over and say, "Oh yeah, I'm writing a screenplay because it can't be worse than this," or "Okay, you write the script and I'll direct because it can't be worse than this." I wanted you beside me. Just because I miss you so much.
I thought, maybe, after we finally had our time together the craving would be satisfied. I wouldn't need the fix of you as much. But it backfired; the craving now tries to consume me. My bed has never felt so empty; my life so isolated. There is so much I want to share with you. I find myself looking for you in everything. Just because I miss you so much.
I knew it was only for a weekend. I knew it was to be "no strings attached." Now I realize "Oops, I left something there." You gave me a wonderful memory to pull out and dust off when the nights become lonely. But the pain of loss overshadows the joy of our time together. I can't bear to reminisce yet. Just because I miss you so much.
I want to call you, but I can't. It's late. You're busy. I should be busy. The strings need to be cut. Our worlds, our lives, pull us farther apart. But I keep looking back... hoping you will too. Just because I miss you so much.
Are you in love?
KZ
Posted by
Knockout Zed |
5:26 PM, October 08, 2005
I would think so Z...:)
That was so from the heart Tonee...it is wonderful. As I was reading it I felt love in your words...Sometimes it's the things we don't say...:)
Wonderful!
Posted by
Didi Roby |
12:04 AM, October 09, 2005
Yeah, that's love. In the worst way.
Posted by
The Brown Blogger |
12:12 PM, October 10, 2005
Zed, Dee and Hassan,
Sad but true, I guess I am. But shhhh, don't tell anyone. As members of the command y'all are sworn to secrecy. :)
Posted by
toneec42 |
7:53 PM, October 10, 2005
That shit is sweet. I remember those feelings. It's been awhile.
KZ
Posted by
Knockout Zed |
12:39 PM, October 11, 2005